I’m so glad to be back into a regular, local work schedule this week. We had a few days off in which I had no motivation at all. I took my daughter to get her first tattoo, and while she did describe it to me beforehand, I wasn’t expecting it to be as big as it was. First tattoos are painful. I only have a teeny weeny one on my hand, and even that hurt. She’s only 18, and I was 38 when I got mine. It was a little intense. She was squeezing my hand and almost breaking my fingers. I haven’t really seen her in pain since she was little and received her vaccines.
But at lease that’s over, and she’s feeling a lot better.
It did drain me though. I guess I could have spent the rest of my days off turning my big 25 cent day haul from a couple weeks ago into 6 inch squares, but there was no motivation to do even that. All I did was rot in bed and doom scroll. I constantly tried to raise my own awareness about why this tragedy in central Texas happened, and I became too aware. Sade Perkins was living in my head rent free until I saw a comment saying, “This is a psy op, and she’s a fed!” I wondered what a psy op was and came across this video explanation. He explains what it is and then describes literally everything the mass media and social media do all day every day. Some in those comments were like, “is this video a psy op?” If you go around repeating the things this guy says, imo that’s a great way to end up in a padded room.
Luckily by the time I gave it up, it was time to go to work.
One of the reasons why I like my job is because it’s constant movement, all numbers, all facts, and channels all this pent up energy out of me.
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