Saturday Unplanned.

 

While I didn’t physically attend the protest I was going to attend, I did watch the live stream. There were a lot of people in the live stream, but not a lot in attendance. I guess my perception of what was going to actually happen was off. They were just standing outside the church, there was some honking, but that was it. I was driving while listening to it, so I didn’t see “handing out bibles” like they said they were doing. Then they all agreed that “they didn’t want people driving by to think they were associated with that church”, lol, so they got in a couple cars and decided to find the farmers market owned by Sade Perkins. This was the first I was hearing about a farmers market, and I think if I was actually there, this is the point where I would have left. If anyone was inside the church, I don’t think a church person would have gotten “non-peaceful” with them. But I imagined someone at the farmers market would have. I’m not sure why I pictured it to be like a nice Whole Foods market with employees and everything. In reality, they went to the address listed and it was at a dead end of a residential street in third ward with a bunch of run down houses. They look around and say, “I don’t see any farmers.” 

lol, nope!  Not in the hood! No farmers! 

They find a man who was possibly homeless just kind of hanging outside a small grocery store and asked him where the farmers market was. The man replied, “People keep asking me that!  I don’t know anything about a farmers market.”  (Lol) 

Then another man walked by and said it was in a Methodist church parking lot. This was only a block away, so they walked. They found the Methodist but no farmers market. They then went back to the church and I turned off my live stream. 

Periodically throughout, they would mention unmarked police cars and say things like “There’s another cop!  But we love and support the cops!” Etc etc.  it was as if they thought the cops were after them, but I don’t think they were specifically.  They were just there to keep peace.  

Sade then proceeded to make another TikTok video where she’s acting super scared and saying “These people are trying to find me and unalive me!”  She then at the end of the video clicks a gun in an obvious threat against the people who did the protest.  A couple hours later, a video was made by the guy who organized the protest with his receipt from HPD showing that he pressed charges for the threat. She got three charges pressed against her- the threat, being a felon in possession of a firearm and stolen valor. 

What a shit show indeed. 

But what was this originally about in the first place?  It had to do with a tragedy that happened in central Texas on the Fourth of July. There was catastrophic flooding, and several people died including children who were at sleep away camp. The children were 8-10 years old, and their counselors were no older than 20 years old. Sade, in an attempt to blame the political right, said all kinds of heinous offensive things including calling the child victims “cunts” and “dead white bitches”. She’s definitely it the only one, there are a lot of leftists doing the same thing, just not with such inflammatory language. 

I live in Houston, which is at least 300 miles from where this happened. I don’t live anywhere near Kerr County, but I’ve passed through often. If anything happened in their local politics to have caused this, I wouldn’t know about it. Finally, someone decided to educate- apparently, in 2021, they were supposed to get $10.5 million from the Biden administration and they refused it because basically they didn’t like Biden. And whatever they would have done with that money would have prevented this. Someone finally posted hours and hours of meeting videos from 2021, but luckily Someone made a condensed version. 

This is exactly what I mean when I say the extremism and the hate is on both sides. What the hell are they talking about? I thought the feds gave the states money for shit like that all the time?  What stipulations?  What were the stipulations?  I don’t know, but what I do know from experience living in Texas for 23 years is that it may have been stipulations for mandatory evacuation. Texans don’t like to evacuate. They like to ride it out. I’m the opposite. Maybe if I’m bored I can watch these entire meetings, but I’m going to be busy for the next couple weeks. By the end of the month, this will all blow over. 

Edited to add: I just learned that this money that they were saying would be a “pact with the devil” if they accepted, they really did accept and used 70% to give themselves raises.  Can you make this up? Who’s the devil now?  

I really do appreciate being shown the meetings where they (I was going to say refused funding, but didn’t refuse funding and pocketed this demonic money anyway).  And since they did end up accepting the money, were all the regulations put in place that they were so scared of?  But it would have been really nice if this more grown up, fact-based educating was done first, before blaming dead children. Everyone grow the hell up. 

Oh, and my sourdough starter failed. But I’m going to make a new one. 

Chickening Out

 I’ve been up all night long, and I’m absolutely chickening out about going to the protest. I went to the corner store, filled my tank and then came right back home, got back into my pajamas and back in bed. 

1. There might be a drive by shooting at the protest, organized by the person being protested.

2. The media might show up, accidentally get a picture of me there, that picture might get into the hands of the wrong person or people, and I will be perceived a certain way that I don’t want to be perceived as. 

3. I suspect that she either wants the negative attention, or she’s trolling. She set up a go fund me for herself (because of course she did).  And people are donating $5 to leave her negative comments!  😂 

People actually have to tell people to not do that because you are directly supporting her and can leave her negative comments for free literally anywhere else. Getting $5 in your account every time someone wants to leave you a negative comment is the ultimate Uno reverse card. 

But enough about her, here are some things Kevin and I have been laughing at. 

He had a bad case of the hiccups last night, and I’ve never seen him with hiccups. They’re frickin hilarious with him. I don’t know why he seems to overdo each hiccup. Then to make matters even more hilarious, his cat Mitchell decided to mock him with “ekekek” every time he hiccuped. The weird part was that we didn’t even know where Mitchell was. He wasn’t on the bed with us, but we could hear him from wherever he was doing “ekekek” every time Kevin hiccupped. Finally he took a shower and they went away. 

Then I don’t really know why, but old videos of Riverdance from the 90’s were coming up in my YouTube suggestions. Riverdance was a live show in the 90’s of Irish dancing starring Michael Flatley. I asked Kevin if he remembered it, and he didn’t. I told him they were pretty popular back then. I started playing one of the videos, and he immediately started laughing!  I said, “Are you laughing at Riverdance???” He laughed even more and tried to undo it by saying, “I’m sure they worked very hard.”  

I continued to watch some and was like, actually this is kind of funny from a 30 years later perspective. But back then, I was hooked!  

My Saturday Plans

 Tomorrow I’m attending a protest at the First UU Church of Houston that’s taking place between 10-4. I’m not staying the entire time, because I have plans with my daughter. My daughter doesn’t want to go to the protest with me, and I actually am glad.  If you are curious as to what we are protesting, see my below post. Or better yet, google Sade Perkins and go down the rabbit hole. 

I’m going to be wearing black jeans, a black top, black walking shoes, and my Texas drivers license and health insurance card will be in my back pocket just in case she shows up and starts shooting up. Do I think she’ll do that?   I think there’s a 10-20% chance. But nah. 

I am learning that not everyone in the world has the mentality that children are innocent. The mentality does exist that if a child is the child of your enemy, they will grow up to be “the same way” as your enemy. Sade doesn’t have that many supporters, but the few that she does have are giving examples of racist white people from way back in the day and saying the flood victims would have grown up to be just like that. 

….. No they wouldn’t. I have seen so many positive mindset shifts with “Gen Z”, and even more with “Gen Alpha”, that I’ve come to believe that their collective growth and their collective breaking of generational curses is actually the start of world peace. That’s actually the happy ending of my book, The Child Advocate. Spoiler alert! I start noticing how the young people are and realizing not only how much better they have it than us, but how much better they’re doing than we did. I do believe they will “start the process” of world peace. Don’t get me wrong, my kid has come across some shithead classmates, but absolutely nothing like when I was in school.  

But that mentality does exist, that the child of your enemy will “just grow up to be that way”. I saw this being talked about regarding the war between Israel and Palestine. Neither side sees the children of the other side as innocent. That’s partly why it’s so frickin ugly over there. Some guy explained it to me, and it just left me feeling a little bit of the ick. He said something like, they gotta make sure they get them all (including the kids), “or else it will turn into some kind of green goblin situation.” 

He eluded me for a second. Was that a Spiderman reference?  Wasn’t the green goblin the enemy of spiderman who yelled at his kid, “AVENGE ME!” Just as he was dying, and then eventually his kid became the next green goblin?  Yes that’s actually what this guy said. He said that. Out loud, he actually said that.  

If I remember correctly, though, the green goblin didn’t succeed and Harry died. So just don’t blame kids, hurt kids, unalive kids, or rejoice when bad things s happen to them. Just leave the kids out of it. 

I feel like this country is so divided and I honestly don’t want any part of either side. It makes me wish Trump was deporting second generation Americans as well, because my morals don’t line up with the BS of either side of the far left or far right anymore. Maybe in 20 years when the candidates are going to be more and more Gen Z, I’ll take more interest. 

The good news is, there’s some much lighter drama on TikTok that has me absolutely laughing my bitt off and laughing away all the pain of the Sade drama. It’s the “antipastogate” situation. A woman who appears to be in her 30’s (too old to be doing this) posted A video of herself crying, explaining that someone invited her to Fourth of July but forgot to tell their husband. He came in not knowing who she was and was rude to her and she left. Not only that, but she brought an antipasto salad that looked amazing and shared a brief picture of it in the crying video. The rude husband made a video in response saying that he thought she was casing the place out. The most hilarious response was This guy. So was This guy

I’ve been laughing hysterically, but is it really that funny?  Yes I think so. So are the memes: 

Sade’s World- my last thoughts on the flooding

 Going viral on TikTok right now is a woman named Sadè (pronounced Shah-Day) who has been extremely nasty in her descriptions of the children who lost their lives at Camp Mystic. She has claimed that their deaths are deserving all the way to actually calling the 8-10 year old deceased kids “cunts”. 

Some people are saying she’s a preacher’s wife. They actually aren’t married. Her partner is the pastor of The First Unitarian Universalist Church of Houston, which is located on Fannin St. near downtown and the museum district. I went to this church a handful of times. My ex husband used to make fun of it and call it “The come and believe your own shit church”, because there’s no creed. He wasn’t wrong though, that’s exactly what UU is. It’s a congregation of people with varying religious beliefs. Two of the times I visited this church, I also visited the Houston Women’s Group, which is a weekly gathering to discuss feminist politics. The first time I went, I was visibly pregnant, about 7-8 months along. I just sat and said nothing that first time. The reason I’m writing this here is not so I can be educated in the comments about how “feminism is all about choice.”  Trust me, I already know. I respect that that has been some people’s experience, but as for me I was heavily pressured to just be all about career and not a family. When I was about to have a baby, I heard of them and just wanted to go sit in the back. I just went and sat near the door in case I needed to escape. They were generally welcoming, but said nothing about me being obviously pregnant. 

The next time I went to the Houston Women’s Group was almost two years later. I let my daughter go to the nursery while attended the service and then went to the women’s group. They didn’t remember me. There was a guest speaker that day. She was talking about an email list about political advocacy, and she kept using the word “pro abortion”.  Someone cringed at like the third or fourth time she said it and reminded her something like, “When you write the emails though, please don’t use the term pro abortion please use pro choice.  I know it’s how we really feel, but it might get some people riled up.” And then mentioned that the right likes to misinterpret “pro abortion” so they’re “forced to” use the term “pro choice” and act like they really believe in choice. 

Haha, what?  I spoke up at that point and said it was always drilled into me that there was no such thing as pro abortion and that the correct term was pro choice. One of them explained it to me that the inherent act of having children was oppressive to women. Women were the first oppressed group in human history, and it was directly due to childbearing.  It was still oppressive even if a woman “chose” it, and in fact, if she chose it she was bringing all women down. I’m paraphrasing here, but they also explained that if a woman is choosing to have children, she’s not actually making an informed choice, she’s just doing it out of pressure. I clammed up at that point. What a weird thing to say, especially since all pressure I ever felt surrounding the issue was to not have any kids. I couldn’t leave, because I didn’t want them thinking I disagreed with them and having them get mad. I thought to myself holy shit and I showed up here when I was 8 months pregnant?  Eventually I did slip out the door and ran to the nursery to get Anna. Hilariously, the nursery volunteers convinced us to stay for mommy and me song time, and I did. It was completely different women there, of course, because they were all moms who had put their kids in the church nursery. I spent the next little while sitting in this circle with my toddler in my lap singing “Cumbaya” type songs.  It helped me forget about the weird “just use pro choice so you don’t upset the moms” comment in women’s group. 

The opinion that having children is in and of itself a negative- oppression of women literally caused by it- in my opinion is a seed that could manifest in child abuse. 

It manifested in this. This woman whose “partner” is a “pastor” there said those little girls deserved to die. She even called these dead little girls cunts. Go to TikTok and search “Sade’s World”. There are thousands calling her out on how evil she is. 

A lot of people are discovering Unitarian Universalism for the first time because of her too, and are like “Oh my goodness that’s why!  Because SHES NOT A CHRISSTIANNN!”  

Well that’s not why, and that’s why I shared my personal experience with that church. There is a hatred of children that manifests from the idea that having them is inherently wrong. I don’t think it’s all of those people though. Of course, there was a nursery with mommy and me song time following the service. 

One thing I will say I agree with Sade on though- and it’s the only thing because she’s an evil cunt whore bitch- is that “missing white woman syndrome” or “Gabby Petito syndrome” is real. It means that when a child of color goes missing, they don’t get as much attention as when a white child goes missing, in particular if it’s a little girl who’s blonde. It’s a thing  

Lord knows I’ve devoted so much time to trying to write about missing people who could still be alive and even tried to blog about them until I just kept finding out about more and more of them and it got too much. I would like to challenge Sade to go look for Asha Degree, Diamond and Tionda Bradley, Anthonette Cayedito, Relisha Rudd, Vinyette Teague, Manuela Orlandi and I could srsly go on and on. I would love to see any of them found. But the truth is probably doesn’t know who any of them are. She’s just a demon spewing hate. She doesn’t want to learn who any of them are. 

She also made a TikTok basically threatening to kill anyone who talks about her online. It’s not deterring me from this blog post. 

 Day two of my sourdough starter was just “give it a stir”. I don’t have to “remove half and add more” until tomorrow. 

Today Kevin and I are riding in the back of the boss’s car for five hours to “Louisiana”. He has no idea where, but the five hour timeframe suggests Alexandria. Tomorrow we do a job there and then come back in the evening. 

There’s a lot of drama on social media about the children who lost their lives in Kerrville. A lot of people saying Texas deserves it due to the politics here. Both sides of the political bird gloat when disasters happen in states that vote the opposite of them. I literally just really hate both sides. 

This is the most educational and factual take I’ve heard.  This woman is a meteorologist and gives a solution at the end of the video. 

To lighten the mood, here’s Alex. Yes I know he’s fat. 

Sourdough Starter; No July 4th

 Today, I made a sourdough starter. It will be ready in about a week. I got this container at Dollar Tree, and I’m following these instructions:

If anyone has any tips, let me know. 

Many times, I find people online to follow that I end up loving, and the whole reason I found them in the first place was because I had listened to their haters complaining about them. One of those is Nara Smith. Nara Smith likes to get dressed up for the kitchen and make things from scratch- so of course she has haters. But I watch some of her stuff and I’m just like, you can do that?  Here she is making a regular loaf of sourdough and a chocolate one. I’m totally going to do both as well. Chocolate sourdough sounds amazing. 

We didn’t hear fireworks on the fourth. Many people online aren’t celebrating because of Trump. I’m not a Trump supporter, nor am I really big on Fourth of July, but I couldn’t help noticing that the same people who aren’t celebrating the fourth out of the belief that he’s a dictator, also wanted to dictate my every move for several years of my life. In my old apartment, thanks to my mom leaking my address, I had cops occasionally knocking on my door for welfare checks because family members called and said I was suicidal. I’m not. One cop kept asking me if I had a gun. I don’t. He kept pressing. I said, you’re welcome to search. He said, “I just want to go home.”  Then go home!  The goal of these family members was to have me locked up, because they didn’t like several things, including my long distance relationship at the time, my 1099 job that wasn’t a W2 job etc. one of my best friends thought it was my ex husband and his wife doing this (Anna’s dad and stepmom), but I didn’t think so, because I was required to give them my new address as soon as I moved in. My mother didn’t leak it until a few months later, and that’s when the knocks at the door started happening. 

I’ve also seen a handful of comments online poking fun at recent tragedies in my home state of Texas. We lost several 8-10 year old girls at a summer camp due to flooding. The owner of the camp also died trying to save them. This is devastating, as a mom, as someone whose best childhood memories were at camp, and as someone close by. These were kids. Don’t do that. They were little girls. Our country is truly divided if people can stoop that low. 

The plus side of no fireworks is that my daughter reported that her father’s chiwawa-pug didn’t have anxiety and didn’t need meds. 

4th of July- Can’t Move Numbers Online

 As of this evening, Saturday the fifth, I still haven’t received my paycheck. So I sent this meme to my boss. He loves the movie Office Space, and if you haven’t seen it and/or don’t get the meme, here is the explanation. 

I have a bad case of the irritation. If I knew this was going to happen, I would have waited another week on paying the whole car loan off.