Therapy Update

 I was willing to give the therapist with the judge mental eyebrows one more shot. You know what it was more of a dirty look. Not only that but she was arguing with me the whole time. When I told her that my panic attacks started when I graduated college, she argued with me that getting a degree was “always worth it.”  I simply responded, “Not for me.”  When I said that people in my family had a problem with me getting married and only wanted me to have a career, she pushed back and said, “But it’s your choice.”  And when she found out that Kevin and I met at work and that he’s 12 years older than me, the look on her face showed an insane amount of disapproval, but I think she could tell that I wasn’t back ing down from my “choice”. 

Well two nights ago, I got a message on the teledoc app saying that she was requesting cancellation and didn’t even give me a reason why. I was flabbergasted. It was obvious that my suspicions were correct and she just had a problem with me as a person. It explains the evil eye she gave me the whole entire time. Forget addressing my health anxiety anymore. I spent all yesterday just a crying mess. We live in a society where everyone worships therapy. It’s the only solution to anything. I was completely nonfunctional yesterday and yes I did call the main number asking why this happened. What was her reason for doing this to me. It’s absolutely pointless though. I don’t know how I’m going to function this upcoming week. It’s been extremely hard and I do not even know if I want to know why she had such a low opinion of me. Maybe she’s against my age gap relationship and the fact that we met at work, maybe she’s against the fact that I regret my college degree. I don’t know I just know that things were mostly fine and now they’re not fine at all and I’m not fine in the slightest